The more safe I feel, and the more I have healed, the more I am able to access and feel calm and peace inside. I never realised until recently that there was something different to that constant churning anxiety that was always checking for threats. It was so novel at first that I almost thought I was doing something wrong (or not doing enough), but as I have accepted and tried to remain in it (there’s still plenty of ups and downs) I have found so much more goodness and stability.
That is exactly right--the first time I felt my brain relax it was frightening. The body took longer and that still has ups and downs--which is normal--but seldom that "constant churning anxiety." Yes, "so much more goodness and stability."
The more safe I feel, and the more I have healed, the more I am able to access and feel calm and peace inside. I never realised until recently that there was something different to that constant churning anxiety that was always checking for threats. It was so novel at first that I almost thought I was doing something wrong (or not doing enough), but as I have accepted and tried to remain in it (there’s still plenty of ups and downs) I have found so much more goodness and stability.
That is exactly right--the first time I felt my brain relax it was frightening. The body took longer and that still has ups and downs--which is normal--but seldom that "constant churning anxiety." Yes, "so much more goodness and stability."