You were so gracious when I finally confessed, years ago, that I hadn’t finished “Brave” yet. I thought you were being gracious and kind (and you were!) but you also understand.
It was the same with “Deepest Well” and “The Body Keeps the Score”. Books that were recommended, but I couldn’t get past the first chapter at the time.
I think that you are even more brilliant - your ideas are your own, and not a regurgitation from vast sources outside yourself! That is a gift for sure :)
Now that your reading brain is not so occupied with coursework, maybe it is all primed and ready to read again. The struggle is real though! And normal!
I could not get past the first chapter of The Body Keeps the Score. The way my body responded to that first chapter made it clear to me that it was not something I could do at the time.
SO I feel like I always jump in to comment but that serendipity thing? Is that why I get so much pleasure from wandering around bookstores because I enjoy looking at the beautiful covers and titles not necessarily because I need to buy another book?
I have recently begun using an app to listen to Scripture while I read it rather than trying to read Scripture alone. I have always struggled with the habit of reading my Bible even though it is something that has been utilized for spiritual growth for centuries in my family. ANd I've felt less than because I haven't been able to sit with Scripture like my Mom, Grandma and back and back have always been able to do, or memorize chapters at a time like my Grandfather, but the pressure to keep up with that expectation was both too much and continually fed my "you're not enough" premise. So this is huge I think.
I listen to audiobooks a lot, partly for physical reasons with multiple issues related to my sight, but because my brain just can't seem to process words like it used to, with all that is jumping around up there right now... oh this makes sense to me.
It is so multilayered isn't it? And filled with so many "shoulds" that it takes the joy from reading. One thing I didn't talk about was how much children's literature I read --I could say that it was part of my job as a Child Lit instructor, but now that I think of it, it is likely that it was the literature I enjoyed before that day. It showed up in Hotel Candelabra!
The struggle to read……I found reading that section in Trauma in the Pews so validating and helpful. During my Masters I used an app called Natural Reader. I cleaned the house while listening to university readings.
Yes! I did address this in TITP and thought I had climbed over it. I guess it goes with the post in Brave Survivor thread about "Didn't I already Work through This?" Totally different layer. The AI readers would have been so helpful with research--though I struggle to focus!
You were so gracious when I finally confessed, years ago, that I hadn’t finished “Brave” yet. I thought you were being gracious and kind (and you were!) but you also understand.
It was the same with “Deepest Well” and “The Body Keeps the Score”. Books that were recommended, but I couldn’t get past the first chapter at the time.
I think that you are even more brilliant - your ideas are your own, and not a regurgitation from vast sources outside yourself! That is a gift for sure :)
Now that your reading brain is not so occupied with coursework, maybe it is all primed and ready to read again. The struggle is real though! And normal!
I could not get past the first chapter of The Body Keeps the Score. The way my body responded to that first chapter made it clear to me that it was not something I could do at the time.
Interesting how your body was affirming the title, right?
SO I feel like I always jump in to comment but that serendipity thing? Is that why I get so much pleasure from wandering around bookstores because I enjoy looking at the beautiful covers and titles not necessarily because I need to buy another book?
I have recently begun using an app to listen to Scripture while I read it rather than trying to read Scripture alone. I have always struggled with the habit of reading my Bible even though it is something that has been utilized for spiritual growth for centuries in my family. ANd I've felt less than because I haven't been able to sit with Scripture like my Mom, Grandma and back and back have always been able to do, or memorize chapters at a time like my Grandfather, but the pressure to keep up with that expectation was both too much and continually fed my "you're not enough" premise. So this is huge I think.
I listen to audiobooks a lot, partly for physical reasons with multiple issues related to my sight, but because my brain just can't seem to process words like it used to, with all that is jumping around up there right now... oh this makes sense to me.
It is so multilayered isn't it? And filled with so many "shoulds" that it takes the joy from reading. One thing I didn't talk about was how much children's literature I read --I could say that it was part of my job as a Child Lit instructor, but now that I think of it, it is likely that it was the literature I enjoyed before that day. It showed up in Hotel Candelabra!
Let’s explore some more bookstores together! We can read all the titles and then buy a puzzle :)
We are great co-explorers in bookstores! I need a break though after the Chicken puzzle! LOL
Janyne, I have struggled with reading since my son Andrew died. And my understanding is that this is a struggle many bereaved parents face.
Yes, it is true with all kinds of trauma and I do wonder is there is more research out there to explain why. I need to see what I can find.
The struggle to read……I found reading that section in Trauma in the Pews so validating and helpful. During my Masters I used an app called Natural Reader. I cleaned the house while listening to university readings.
Yes! I did address this in TITP and thought I had climbed over it. I guess it goes with the post in Brave Survivor thread about "Didn't I already Work through This?" Totally different layer. The AI readers would have been so helpful with research--though I struggle to focus!